When do I stop gathering things to do? I mean, I have so much I want to do and it's all just been so screwed up? So fine. You win. You've ruined my life. You have accomplished your goal. You've made me disappear. I lost. I get it. Now get me. You have my daughter. You have my heart. You have my soul. My turn. I'm gathering that back. Witness my rebirth, and watch me grow stronger with each passing day that you keep them from me. To do list? All of the following ALL at once:
- Work out and get the body I wanted.
- Go to school/self learn:
- - Legal
- - Theater
- - Photography
- - Physics
- - Chemistry
- - Computer Science
- - Computer Programming
- Find someone to support me through all of this.
- Find someone who will be a true mother to my daughter and who won't just think of her as some pawn to get money.
- Regain my HEART.
- Regain my SOUL.
- Regain my DAUGHTER.
- Regain my LIFE.
Maybe then you will realize what you left and deserted. Don't expect to hear much from me and don't expect me to be "me" anymore. Just remember when all of this is done, you broke it. (For those who try to read into this, does this sound like someone who abuses their child or wife?)
Listening to: The last words I heard from my heart.
Reading: My mind.
Watching: The blood flow even though the heart is gone.
Playing: Nothing. I am done playing games.
Eating: Food for thought.
Drinking: Wine for wisdom.